The day I came to my senses

I could never pinpoint
But I did it many times before
Each time I felt stupid
Each time I felt embarrassed
The worst was over, though
And the days I came to my senses …
Marked the end and the beginning

And then …
For some reasons I could not explain
But always a reason
I went away again

Each time I went …
Finding my way back was harder and harder
I’ve been away for too long this time
Every time wanting to come back
But, every time I was close …
I pulled myself farther away

But today is the day I come to my senses
And this time …
I’m coming back for good

14 April 96